March 20, 2019 is my 20th birthday. I woke up at 10:30 am (too tired after skiing yesterday), went to work and returned home at 4 pm. Had dinner with Wilson, Marvin, and Daniel at ICHIBAN. Had a nap until 11 pm (Spring Break is the best, yay). Some thoughts:
I just found that March 20, 2019 is the Spring Equinox this year (4:58 pm -0500UTC). So it turned out I was born at the beginning of Spring / end of Winter! Unfortunately here in Madison there isn’t much to enjoy in Spring/Fall (compared to my hometown Yancheng, China or Boston, MA).
My family need to fund me $45,000 (¥300,000) for the rest of 2019 on tuitions and living expenses. I can probably earn a total of $10,000 this year through my part-time job and summer research. I can’t thank my parents enough for their raising and support. But in the meantime both they and I feel pressured because my higher education is a huge investment! Fortunately I will graduate with no debts so that I can live a relatively relaxed life during prime years.
I’m a practical guy. I need the high wage and visa sponsorship of a major US company to pay back my parents and earn a self-accomplished life. I value certain things more than others, so my main everyday spending is just rent, meals, electronics, and that’s it. From my own opinion I don’t think I can take care of myself well in the near future, i.e. having a healthy, regular lifestyle, so no romantic relationship for me! Well that’s not all bad, as I grow up I realize my life philosophy is basically “seize the day while taking responsibility.” Actions bring consequences and being able to take responsibility for your own actions is cool and a sign of maturity. I regret some of my past actions and don’t want to add new regrets in the future. Quoting lyrics from Congratulations:
My mama called, seen you on TV, son
Said sh*t done changed ever since we was on
I dreamed it all ever since I was young
They said I wouldn’t be nothing
Now they always say congratulations
Worked so hard, forgot how to vacation
They ain’t never had the dedication
People hatin’, say we changed and look we made it
Yeah, we made it
My goals for my age of 20 are: a summer internship in 2020, a publication of my research work, an app of my own, good grades, good relationships with professors and classmates, good ranks at programming contests, and of course, a healthy body with good moods.
I shall fulfill my goals and chase my dreams. I may be tired but most happy. I shall not envy others for their accomplishments. I wish I could say “I made it” in the future.